The effect of music on my life:

WHERE DO I BEGIN!?!? Music is the foundation that defines who I am. I have been listening to music ever since i was little. In fact, my mom loves to recount the story about when i was 3 years old, on a 2 hour road trip, they had to listen to All Star by Smash Mouth the entire time or else I would start screaming. I do feel a little guilty for this now. …However, Music was this thing that calmed my soul and gave my heart a beat to beat to.

I did not have a lot of friends to talk to in my life, so I mainly resorted to music to connect with. It was the emotions i felt but could not express and it was just so expressed in lyrics and intenseness.

Now, for better or worse, I was listening to classic metal and hard rock ever since I was a 6. My dad, also has Asperger’s Syndrome (he was never officially diagnosed, though!), and he has a crazy obession with comic books. Every Wednesday night when he did come home from work we would drive to the closest comic book store around (15 minutes away) and he would put the hard rock radio station and we would jam out together. So, consequently, I developed a lock for the same hard rock music. I spent my childhood listening to the local hard rock and pop rock stations on the radio. I liked the hard rock and ‘nu metal’  genre that was popular at the time. It was angry, angsty and portrayed the frustration that I felt as a 6 year aspie kid. I identified the lyrics on my own level. Right Now by Korn was probably the most relateable and soothing song for me at the time. It said shut up at the end and i just wanted the kids to shut up and leave me be. I always waited for the DJ to play it. Some songs I just loved the rhythm and beat of.

Additionally, my avid memory allowed me to remember songs and bands like that, and of course, I also have the experience (like most people do) of reliving the experiences and feelings I felt when I first heard the song. As i grew up, I have expanded my music tastes, but I feel like i always listened to music the same way; to give me a voice and help identify my feelings. When I’m particularly upset and confused I’ll listen to music. It is my zen.

Also, music makes me feel connected and reminds that I am a human and have valid emotions. I can express myself and have my own “identity’ through it.

My Music Taste

Now, my music taste ranges everything from Passion Pit to Tool. I like music that either 1) pushes the envelope and makes you think or  2) is emotional. I used to tell people I like Alternative rock, punk, and metal, but i think these two are very broad terms. Metal has too many sub categories and alternative rock-well…what makes it alternative? Nonetheless, the music I listen to is important to me and I have a few bands I absolutely love are:

Death Cab For Cutie

Foo Fighters

Metallica, (had the 8th grade metallica obsession phase :p)


Red Hot Chili Peppers

Iron Maiden

Tool (they actually have some intelligent songs, like their infamous song Forty-six and two).


Third Eye Blind


The Strokes

Florence and the Machine

I am literally everywhere and these are just ‘big dogs’ of music and there are tons of smaller, but still so so great artists


Plague Vendor

Cloud Nothings

July Talk

The Growlers

Just to name a few. I love making playlists of all the music I am currently listening to and updating them as I find new tracks. I have three playlists of music I like listening too.

  1. Purple

It captures my essence as a music listener with my vast music tastes and unique songs  heard neither on the radio nor MTV.

2. Recluse Sunset

Chill yet dark and heavy songs with an ecclectic touch. I imagine having this playlist on while flying down mountain switchbacks in a convertible car, alone, as the sun sets.

Bands like: The Melvins, Porcupine Tree, The Dead Weather, The Ramones, early and bluesy AC/DC, Iron Maiden

3. Dreamy Deary

Cute love songs with a contemplative, grave undertone.

Bands like: The Cranberries, Death Cab for Cutie, The Cure